I Ain't Gon Lie - Starlito

I almost lost my mama to COVID, got me back focused

If you love me, it ain’t enough that you told me, rather you showed me

I’m up late watching the Lakers with my baby, thinkin' 'bout Kobe

Hate that I’m stuck and snowed in, wakin' up watchin' Frozen

Learn to hide my emotions and make it hard to expose you

I left and they went without me, I guess I’m just like DeRozan

Like an auction on houses, I’m still lookin' for closure (Closure)

Tryna deal with it sober

I learned that when you real, if it don’t kill you when you heal,

then it’s over (Then it’s over)

I just caught a chill, I’m gettin' colder

I still got my MAC like Khalil, bought a sack like Khalil

And I’m right at home, back in the field, a soldier (A soldier)

I ain’t gon' lie, nah, I ain’t gon' lie (I ain’t gon' lie)

I used to feel like I ain’t gon' cry

But I ain’t know why (I ain’t know why)

That was back when I was so high

Livin' like I wasn’t gon' die (Like I wasn’t gon' die)

Now I won’t let a hour go by

I got feelings that I won’t deny

I almost lost my daddy to a seizure, couldn’t believe it

Caught me by surprise after takin' my heart out the freezer

Crazy, I never learned to forgive, that’s why I’m grievin' (Grievin')

Trauma I dealt with since a kid which led to drinkin' (Drinkin')

I just had a panic attack, I was barely breathin' (Breathin')

Wonder where the Xanax be at when you really need 'em (Need 'em)

Used to abuse 'em, I thought it was therapeutic

I always was getting zooted, if I wasn’t makin' this music, I’d lose it

Truth is nine on me like Vucevic

Paranoid a Judas might cross me like a crucifix

Lookin' for love, nobody taught me how to do the shit

My biggest fear is gettin' caught up with a groupie bitch

(Nah, for real)

I ain’t gon' lie, nah, I ain’t gon' lie (I ain’t gon' lie)

I used to feel like I ain’t gon' cry

But I ain’t know why (I ain’t know why)

That was back when I was so high

Livin' like I wasn’t gon' die (Like I wasn’t gon' die)

Now I won’t let a hour go by

I got feelings that I won’t deny (I won’t deny)

(DTdaKidd)

(B-B-Beat those drums)