Confessions Of A Hotboy - Steven Moses

Uh, tryna find a way to cope with the pain

I don’t know where to go with the pain, oh

Uh, I think everything look better in the rain

I think everything look better in the rain, oh

Oh, oh, I’m tryna cope, but I can’t

Find a way to cope with the pain

Uh, I think everything look better in the rain

I think everything look better in the rain, oh

I still don’t give a fuck yet, uh

And realistically, I don’t think I’m ever gonna

I blow down marijuana smoke

I never ask for the shit, I hope you know that

And I hope you know that every fuckin' thing you gave me, I kept, uh

How 'bout I’m outside at your steps, uh

My heart hangin' out my chest

I’m sorry for all the stress, and I

I’m sorry my life been a mess, uh

But enough said

How come I gotta wake up?

Wanna be dead, let it just end

No, I’m just gonna keep on gettin' more pain in

Lately, I’ve been thinking 'bout changin', uh

Then I realized only one thing ain’t changin'

If I said I love you, I was just playin'

Honestly I think I’m crazy, uh

And I don’t know how to make conversation

But I hope that you know that I’m sorry

You could put my song on your playlist, just something

Dear —

I hope you find whatever the fuck it is that you’re looking for

I know you never claim to be an easy person, but

I just wish you would’ve told me it could be this hard

See, loving you is like this perfect magic never-ending

Alternate reality where we can just get high

And act like nothing’s really happening

And everyday I miss you, and I hate it when you’re mad at me

If loving you’s a war, I guess my heart is just a casualty

And what are hearts for if all they ever do is break?

And I just wish that I could sleep

I fucking hate this, being awake

And what’s the ending to this story?

And do I define my fate?

And will I ever be on time or will I always just be late?

I don’t know

Uh-oh, I just hope we both find better ways to cope with the pain

Everything look better in the rain

Everything look better in the rain

I think everything look better in the rain, oh