Always -

And after all is said and done

I know the problem’s internal

I know the symptoms like they’re family

And I can’t fend them off

But I’m learning to outlast and stand it

Each time gets better and it feels like they’re all losing their grip

You can’t just cover this up

It knows you down to the cell

It’s left a mark on your tongue

Can you taste it?

There is a permanence here

As much as knowing it hurts

It’s not what all of us want

But this is coming to terms

If this is coming to terms, I’ve got a clause of my own

If this is coming to terms, why are its claws at my throat?

If this is coming to terms, we’re gonna pull through

If this is coming to terms, we’re starting with you

It’s getting simple

I’ve got the reins in my hand

It’s never quite gone but not too strong to withstand

And when I hold my breath, it’s not denial of air

It’s not to drown in a void

It’s just a way to see clear

You can’t just cover this up

It knows you down to the cell

It’s left a mark on your tongue

Can you taste it?

There is a permanence here

As much as knowing it hurts

It’s not what all of us want

But this is coming to terms

Tragedy calls you home

Let the trauma, depressive instincts expand where

Tragedy makes its home

In the weak, in the tired, in trembling hands

Tragedy takes a toll

Makes its cuts where it wants to because it can

Tragedy never hold

Tries so desperate to cling, find its purchase but can’t

You can’t just cover this up

It knows you down to the cell

It’s left a mark on your tongue

Can you taste it?

There is a permanence here

As much as knowing it hurts

It’s not what all of us want

But this is coming to terms