Sidelines - Suisei

I’ve been on the sidelines rotting away

Been looking for a place anywhere I could stay

Been tryna make a move they ain’t fall into place

Now I’m wastin away, yea I’m wastin away

Sometimes I hate myself, cuz I don’t like the way I live

And all the time that I’ve been spending with my enemy

And it feels like I’m going insane

Too much shit on my mind, so little to say

I don’t like to talk girl you should know that

No one by my side now and I’m hurt bad

Screaming in silence, but no one heard that

You know it’s true, but that’s not on you

Should I drift away, to the land of the dead and

Throw away, all the things that we had

Cuz I don’t wanna liv, but I’m too scared of dying

I don’t wanna be her, but they told me keep trying

Should I give this another try

Will they give me another lie

I used to be so full of life, but then I lost it

Living such a shitty life it’s exhausting

Guess I’ll just hope for better days, better days, better days