Cleave - Sutcliffe Jügend

Here it is, the unflattering truth

Here I fucking am

This is me

Too scared to bare the truth

Too scared bare the one part of me

That’ll leave me naked and vulnerable

At your feet

Exposed

The words you’re too naïve to hear

Too dumb to understand

Too prejudice to fucking to accept

Language is the failure

Dying as we speak

Sucked in and vomited out

Dead on my lips

Taboo and self deceit

Entwined and ingrained

A sexless liberalism

A non violent epitaph

Your compulsion to inhabit a world in which I do not belong

You beg for degradation

But it’s my degradation

It’s my fall in this filthy fuck world

You long for me to cut away your dignity

I comply

I hack off your arms

My Venus

My beautiful lover

Cloven

Cleave my fatty dirt blood clotted heart in two

Oblique metaphor?

Hidden meaning?

Half truth?

Fantasy?

Mirror?:

«I try to fuck your lifeless body

I know what I have become

I know that I am truly fucked from this moment

That I can never return to whatever was before

I slide my cock inside

I look up to see your family watching

Not daring to breathe

What unholy beast I have become

Death fornicator

Watch me fail

Watch me degrade your memory of her

Watch me destroy myself here

I don’t stop, I can’t

I’m too scared of what is to come when I stop

Even when I come, I continue

Delaying the inevitable

When I do finish, I become nothing

I am nothing

No longer in the moment of the infinite void

I return mortal

Nothing»

Cleave