Butterfly Effect - T-Rock

I’ll take away the pain that I cause when I speak it in rhyme

If only I could turn back time

If I could I’ll dry your teary eyes with a push of rewind

If only I could turn back time

I’d have took my ass to school instead of doing drugs and crime

If only

Never meant to render hurt to who I love

All I ever wanted was a blessing from the Man above

Lost in ignorance how can I panic

Misusin those I love actually I don’t understand it

Wish I could recapture the past if the chance was granted

Like the butterfly effect I’d repair all damage

And make it where you never did suffer

Give you the peace you only dreamt of having with your mother

Til then I’m in the gutter

Niggas think I live my life to cast pain

To an innocent being who I can only give my last name

Shit I’d be different if the cash came

But in the eyes of the system I’m just a victim with a bad name

Homeless if another seed is my destiny

And I ain’t got a thing what will I leave as a legacy

I’m prayin desperately

All the good that I rendered manifested into trouble

We’d probably be better separately so baby I apologize

You sacrificed paradise for a life of parasites

And hell modified the serpent rendered us a lot of lies

Drinking the cup of suffering cause we have-nots

Who outta rise infatuated with the dollar sign

I didn’t know the half of your struggle feelin

You was outta line thought I could save her

Like the Lion of Judah she was a rose being smothered

Cause I planted manure if only

Dear Cinderella I’m sorry I was blinded by cheddar

Living life as a man with no money I could never measure

I dreamt of buying you a mansion of bricks

But I was barely recouping and CEO’s were rich

You bared with me in hopes that your baby would rise

And when the bills were behind shit it ate me alive

I started peddlin yay sellin hay to see a better day

Dirty money and you said the Lord told you never take it

And with a new breed in the game lurking

The game is strenuous on me so I continue working

My only way for me to feed my baby

Was hit the trap with 380

And serve the fiends who shady

My fantasy is riding in Mercedes

But I got 9 albums out

And ain’t a DJ in the South trying to even play me

Wish I could rewind the hands of time

Get a career and never have to put a hand in crime if only

Dear child I aborted

I’m writing a letter to you in Heaven in my mind it was pre-recorded

Me I’m still getting shorted

The fires of having nothing have got me feelin suicidal bout to forfeit

Pray for your daddy he’s a madman

Ain’t a thing going his was looking for treasure in a trash can

See you was precious before I met you

Let it be told I never wanted you to feel the pain and be exposed

And Lord knows I’ll probably be punished but I deserve it

So I’m nervous but I’m always honest

But if I didn’t rap and had a 9 to 5 in college

From hella degrees in college it’ll probably be logic

My life is deadly as a kitchen razor

I felt a life in Heaven was the only way to raise ya

So if I’m wrong pray for me directly to the Savior

I need his mercy now or later Alpha and Omega hell is major