Control - The Four Owls

Yeye, Losing control, finding control

What?

I’m like a run away train or a beast untamed

A mouth full of paraffin spittin' in the flames

More than a few lines written on the grave

Man im living on a page till the victim to the rage

Psychological trigger, pulled by the diabolical figure

I acknowledge the distance as grown

It’s like my thoughts are my own sometimes when i zone

Ego is over blown

Strugglin' to keep it all in check

What we need is more respect

On the same page we can all progress

But too many act like they’re too big for that

Whipping that car out of the lane

And then skidding back

The loss of control

Now you’re not boss of your own life

You’re trapped in a fight you got to resolve

And then you climb back gradually

And find that clarity

Then lie back happily

These voices in my mind are here to whisper and i can’t hide em

I try my best to fight them

Then I end up feeling violent

Know it ain’t my nature

So alone and zone in silence

Is it weed that made me like this or are my mind just like it

Stuck in solitude or sinking to a tiny island

Resentment building up inside me like a deadly virus

Where you end up in the way we pressurize it

Climbing back a wall and building webs attack spiders

Too many leaching off the empire and i can’t provide it

Trying to keep my chakras balanced in their prime alignment

Find it hard confinding

Frozen face smiling

With glass eyes

Plucking the strings of a violin

Work load crushing like a truck flipping sideways

Driven by the light i gotta flip the script write the pain

Flowing out the wall

I want to alleviate this migraine

I guess I gotta live this life and ride it out the highway

Losing control, finding control

Your heart and your body

Mind and your soul

Trying to keep a hold

But my grip stays slipping

Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts

Losing control, finding control

Your heart and your body

Mind and your soul

Trying to keep a hold

But my grip stays slipping

Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts

Steady with the slip

Trying to stay focused

But my mind takes a trip

Every time I take sip

From ho to housewife from housewife to ho

It seems rounded circles i go

The go go girls

Will get yo go go so so mental

The only thing that soothes

Is another instrumental

If the chicken leaves a sour taste

Tell her bring the menu

Cause we can be civil

And That’s all I recommend you

I’m taking control

Or at least trying

And now just trying to make a difference

And keep flying

Not just keep denying

It’s much harder to lie to myself

That’s why I’m kicking pirates off of this ship

For no one else

Blame is a funny game

Shame is another stain

Carve my name into the tracks where I used to play

Change what I used to say

Like I used to stray

Lose or gain control

Gain or lose a day

Its been a minute since we spoke

I’ve been battling the demons in my head trying to cope

Was it the weed that i smoked

Booze, acid or the coke

Playing shows every weekend

Then coming home broke

But it ain’t about the money

Really do it for the love fans

Saying that i wish he wasn’t so pissed off

When I’m playing Unaware

That my brain is decaying

Can’t remember where I’ve been

And my mind is relaying

Paranoid delusions with no real solutions

Running in a circle that my habits are choosing

Feel like I’m losing

And it ain’t no hope

It seems weird some will get it from the words that I wrote

But we are in the same boat

Trying to juggle addiction

Struggling' with the truth

That it’s time to quit them

Don’t wanna be the victim like the past

And show me

You wanna change the day

But it’s happening slowly