I Don't Like Who I Was Then - The Wonder Years

Tossed around like sea glass and you rounded out my edges.

I’ll feel better when the headaches go away.

I got a scar across my forehead, turning purple in the cold

From a night at Shore Memorial.

I was 16 and afraid.

Turned away, like I’m working baby face

Out of Mid-South in the 80's.

I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape.

I think I’m growing into someone you could trust.

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks,

I want to run until my lungs give up.

If I could manage not to fuck this up.

If I could manage not to fuck this up.

I think enough is enough.

Hidden in the tall grass in the naked light of day,

I put my past-self in the ground.

I’ve been dancing on the grave.

I’m not the person that I was then,

I’m tearing him away.

I was bitter.

I was careless.

I was 19 and afraid

But you deserved more from me.

I don’t know why I would say those things.

But you deserved more from me and I’m trying every day.

I think I’m growing into someone you could trust.

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks,

I want to run until my lungs give up.

If I could manage not to fuck this up.

If I could manage not to fuck this up.

I think enough is enough.

You left me walking in circles.

You were a shot in the dark.

You were the baby teeth I buried.

You were the sounds of distant cars.

You left me walking in circles.

You were a shot in the dark.

You were the banner that says «No One»

That I tattooed across my heart.

You left me walking in circles.

You were a shot in the dark.

You’re scattered like ashes across every song that I write.

You’re where the light pollution starts.

I think I’m growing into someone you could trust.

I want to shoulder the weight until my back breaks,

I want to run until my lungs give up.

If I could manage not to fuck this up.

If I could manage not to fuck this up.

Enough is enough.