A Dream - ThouShaltNot

Open up your secret

Tell me how I might refract

For I am one and one life in one time’s

A mirror that I’ve been dying to crack

And let the world be more

Though I know in each act I open up a door

I wonder still at the labyrinths before

That now lie unwandered and ignored

I could swear that I’ve lived as long as you

That I can imitate anything you do

But your hands are hundreds, I’ve just two

Spun from the clock’s relentless core

I could move like blown air

Everywhere, omniscient and wild

I would be your brother, lover, father, and child

I’d find a way to be foolish and be wise

And trace all of the seams in time’s disguise

And at the end of the day, I could blink my eyes

To reload another self once more

Now I’m hearing your footsteps in the halls

While your singing is arching over walls

Tell me, can it be really you at all

In skies and on the ocean floor?

Last night I had a dream that you adored me

Last night I had a dream that I shone bright

The more I am at once to everybody

The more I’ll be like you, the more I can rewrite

Here outside it’s raining, it’s wailing

I’m soaked to the blood

Somehow I know that you did this

It’s your kiss on my head, your dry ground under the flood

And if I learn to swim

Then you’re still the sea that I’m writhing in

Defining all that I am and that I’ve ever been

And all whom I will never be

Is there a way I might drink of you, not drown?

Is there a way I might find the pipeline out

Or diffuse my body into sound

Becoming waves, becoming free?

Last night I had a dream that you adored me

Last night I had a dream that I shone bright

The more I am at once to everybody

The more I’ll be like you, the more I can rewrite

I dreamt I was the air, that I was so strong

I dreamt I was a promise I could keep

I dreamt I was a film, I was a novel

A prayer for the impossible, a dire and desperate leap

I dreamt about a car of grease and metal

I dreamt I was the moment of its crash

I dreamt I was a fire, a shrieking kettle

A cradle and a coffin and a wolf among the sheep

I dreamt I was a priest without forgiveness

I dreamt I was a thief who could see God

I turned away my eyes to keep them human

And waking up I find that they’ve been stolen in my sleep

I dreamt that I had never loved another

I dreamt her heart was safe behind her ribs

That I could stop this war, that I could save her

That I was just a dream returning to the deep