Lose My Mind - Tillie

That summer, I was on tour with my abusive ex

He hit me in the face then he stole my soul

That Thanksgiving, instead of eating, he had to call the cops

Cuz the father of my sister’s kids is high and threatening us

With guns, guns, guns

Oh, isn’t this fun, fun, fun?

Everyone says 'take a breath, sometime soon it has to get better'

Smile and nod my head but what if this changes me forever?

So what if I lose my mind? What if I like the way it feels?

We’re now on the other side of 'Independence, take the wheel'

And I’m so sick of hiding how I feel, can’t even hit the breaks

So what if I lose my mind? What if I, what if I lose my mind?

Call it fresh start, I clear my head, turn around and my brother’s dead

Then my aunt, then my uncle, what the heck? with their own two beloved pets

Up next, my first record deal, called it a saving grace

Turns out, just a slap in the face, man, I’m lovin' that taste

Everyone says 'take a breath, sometime soon it has to get better'

Smile and nod my head but what if this changes me forever?

So what if I lose my mind? (Fuck it) What if I like the way it feels?

We’re now on the other side of 'Independence, take the wheel'

And I’m so sick of hiding how I feel, can’t even hit the breaks

So what if I lose my mind? (Fuck it) What if I, what if I lose my mind?

What if I, what if I lose my mind?

What if I, what if I lose my mind?

Now my sister’s in the hospital again

Broken collarbone, now they’re gone to her head

And my best friend confessed

That he can’t put down the bottle, put my brother to rest

And God, I’m only human

And I can’t fucking cope

And sometimes I think the only was I’ll make it out

Is if I let go

What if I lose my mind? (Fuck it) What if I like the way it feels?

We’re now on the other side of 'Independence, take the wheel'

And I’m so sick of hiding how I feel, can’t even hit the breaks

So what if I lose my mind? (Fuck it) What if I, what if I lose my mind?

Will you be there if I’m getting scared?

Will you stick by my side, side?

Hold me in your arms when the dog gets sick

Stay up with me all night

Will you be there when the day gets heavy?

Will you be there? Would you let me know?

Will you be there when the day gets heavy?

Will you be there? Could you let me know?