Lets Say -

It’s been so long since I saw you last

But it was hard to remember all the things

But that’s between us

And how I thought that if I didn’t give enough

Then I wouldn’t give a fuck about you

And I still see you from time to time

But it’s tilted and awkward and it’s hard to see past

My own fears and how I’m feeling unsteady

Unsteady about this

I’ve got so far to go but I can’t see the light, can’t see the light

We keep falling back into our patterns

Chasing apparitions and ghosts in the hall

Over and over I remember what you said

And how it ended up you didn’t care about me at all

I try to untangle my mind from the bed sheet

Try to ignore the memories of sweat and heavy breathing

Oh how I loved you then

Oh how my heart beats for you every night

I’ve got so far to go but I can’t see the light, can’t see the light

When you put a cap over me

I can’t breathe it’s safe

Combust into pieces

Let’s say it’s easier for us to creep away then say

But then I need you around

And it’s tough when I can’t get enough

I can’t breathe

I crave you night and day

Every time I pull my hair out

Every time I shout your name

Where is this getting me?

I’ve got so far to go but I can’t see the light, can’t see the light