Knife's Edge - Vacant Home

I am so drained,

I call out and I can’t hear your name

My pulse through the roof

Was this all in vain?

Hot flashes, cold sweats

Where will I find you next?

Thoughts flood into my head

I’ve woken up to an empty bed

Hot flashes, cold sweats

Where will I find you next?

thoughts flood into my head

Please don’t tell me you left me here again

Just don’t go back there again

Walking on a knifes edge

To keep the blades at bay

Hoping for a time that they’d just crack and rust away

Silence makes the mind wander

Distance makes the body weak

Tell me you’re alright

Please be safe

Always within reach but never close enough

Always within reach but I’m never fast enough

I’ve watched a soul bleed out

Over and over

I felt my soul bleed out

I can’t go on

And as I rode with you in the back of the ambulance

I stopped and I thought

Will I ever see you again

Will you ever open your fucking eyes

Each step I take is a balancing act

A reoccurring spate of heart attacks

Expecting the worst to come

Hoping you find the strength to carry on

Knife’s edge

Knife’s edge

I still remember every word you said

Knife’s edge

Knife’s edge

The weight is lifted along with all the dread

I was so drained

You wear your scars but you’re still here breathing

My pulse is subdued

This was not in vain