Isn't Clear - Verb T

Yo, I’m spinning out, running rings around the room

Trying to settle down, but everything’s about to move

Life’s inpermanent, my dead skin’s merging into earth again

Yet still I’m back to work again

Running from the future, hiding from the past

Face bears a clue, had to disguise it with a mask

Could it be the stubbornness that’s driving us apart?

But without that surely I would disembark

(…), into the cold night

Hold tight to an old shrine, roll dice

I’ve been gambling my whole life — oh my goodness

The good ship lost at sea;

there’s no light

Will the pain ever disappear?

What am I missing here?

Still thinking, and still sitting here

With only silence for answers;

I laugh as my anger resides in the darkness

(My anger resides in the darkness x2)

(Yeah. Didn’t disappear. Look)

Didn’t disappear, still sitting here

Am I happy or sad, it still isn’t clear

No fakeness, only realism here

And if you didn’t catch that, then listen here (x2)

(My mistakes.)

Once again I sit wide awake

In the dark, This is the only time I take

Putting wrinkles on my face, I slide away

Into another room, looking for the light again

I’m in pain, think I might die again

Drama, I know, my mind (has) gone too far

(Dumb fuck) No I’m not, you are!

Shit.

But I’m the only here

The lonely one here, with only one fear

Fear, I’m feeling it but can’t shake it

Back on medication, feeling wasted

Even sound redundant to myself as I’m saying it

Dig a grave and I lay in it

Dig?

attention?

— I fight from it

Aligning with the fire in the fiber’s

In the tip of a dynamite stick;

now I’m lit (lit, lit, lit)

Temper raging, it’s racing its way through my veins and I’m pacing

Man, it’s nothing but the same thing

Up in the cycle trying to break it

Or maybe I’m just fake trying to change it

Will the pain ever disappear?

What am I missing here?

Still thinking, and still sitting here

With only silence for answers;

I laugh as my anger resides in the darkness

Didn’t disappear, still sitting here

Am I happy or sad, it still isn’t clear

No fakeness, only realism here

And if you didn’t catch that, then listen here (x2)