Long Night - We Were Skeletons

The day I learned you tried to kill yourself again

my stomach shriveled up

like a dead fly left out in the sun

It hurt so much to realize that I have no say

that I could never save you.

But I guess it was always that way

and to think otherwise is selfishness

Like how when people die and

everyone makes it about themselves

Yeah, Pity me for all your pain

The pain I could never understand

despite my «I was the last person to talk to her"pleas

I could never shake you out of it

like so much rattling of your cage

when you just swallowed the key

And no finger of mine can reach back in your throat and take it out

It’s not enough, it never was

No words can make things alright again

No choir of angels, No golden rays

No one to see you through these dark alleyways

Maybe death’s like the ocean- and just like the ocean

we just return to the shifting tides

If I could only breathe you in

o try to keep you close

, You won’t ever know

you were all I could think about

when I was fucking

the last girl I slept with

This can’t be fixed through

long talks and late nights

I need to run away

and cut off the pieces

of you that can’t be

diluted through my

piss that’s laced with cheap

whiskey and lack of sleep