Elevens - With Honor

Please tell me how we did this

We got ourselves into such a mess again

We’ve fought so long we can’t remember what the hell it was all about

I can’t count the times I’ve turned around, cheated my promises,

and sold you out

How is this not a waste of time, these blind eyes won’t see me through

I’m feeling for a hand to hold me now, lift the veil, see the truth

There’s so much further left to climb, and not one inch has been secure

I’m feeling for a hand to hold me now, lift the veil and endure

Be it my dexterity for long-winded alibis

But excuses came full circle months ago

I’ve wanted to walk away, but it can’t be right

To forget the knocking and throw the fight

Silence the wanting and blackout the firelight

I’m digging deep to find resolve to change, will to draw lines

I’m putting old ways to the knife, I’m dying here this time

Because honestly I can’t relate

While lying to your face every day

With webs of lies spun to justify all of my failures

I’ve realized my heart’s content

I may never see an end

So when you need me I’ll be outside throwing rocks at the moon every night

'til the day I die

I still believe that faith can move the mountains