When I Dream - XV

When I close my eyes I see your face

I’m just not sure how much a heart can mean

Sometimes I can’t wait to sleep like I can’t wait to be

In your arms grandmoms I love you though I hate to leave

When my eyes open realities sent sent for me

Tellin' me your no longer here to chill and sit wit me

I still remember that dream in 2003

You visited my place, a week after your wake

I can’t still see your clothes still see your face

You came in your wheelchair with banana nut cake

You hugged me told me you loved me, I smiled and said thanks

For everything you did for me, Everything you gave

I’m talkin' bout the time not the physical things

I mean your traits your place, the spiritual things

I mean anything I wanted, you gave me those things

3 o clock in the mornin' fixed me cookies n cremes

When I reach heavens gate I’m gonna look for your wings

But til then I can’t wait to go to sleep when I dream

Of you

When I close my eyes I see your face

I’m just not sure how much a heart can mean

I mean so much has happened since your gone

I can’t wait to go to sleep tonight and tell you all about the songs

I’m tellin' the world what you did However I can

How you raised the kid I was to the man that I am

You held me when I was a baby held me when I was grown

Let me know that you were there when I felt all alone

Your responsible for me havin' the family I have

My caring aunts and uncles who made up for my dad

You was my valentine you was my Santa Clause

You was my clarity when they can’t understand at all

And I cry sometimes 'cuz I hate you gone

But I still get to see you when I see my mom

I know you see me and my brothers like I’m proud of y’all

They’d see your face if they can peek and just see through my heart

And though I wish that you were here I know you see it all

'Cuz you smilin' when we chillin' in my sleep and talk

When I dream

When I close my eyes I see your face

I’m just not sure how much a heart can mean

Momma you’ve been my backbone

I wanna make that known

Even through all the drama I brought it back home

You were the strongest woman I ever seen

And I respect you for it all even when you was mean

I was a teen you still helped me follow my dream

Raised 4 kids 4 black men to achieve

Who would believe

Who would believe

You did it all by yourself Mama

With no welfare

You never asked for help mama

You had the lord on your side 'cuz you an angel

And sometimes I just can’t do nothin' but thank you

Sometimes my dreams have me scared that they’ll take you

It brings me to tears when I think I said I hate you

I love my grandma for the fact that she made you

And transferred the love into you that she gave you

Name where you wanna go and that’s where I’ll take you

You gave me everything that I needed now I’m gon' repay you

When I close my eyes I see your face

I’m just not sure how much a heart can mean