Hindsight -

Dear family and friends

I’m going through some shit again

I’ve got a real love hate

With hope and faith

And a sickening feeling

That it will never change

I’ve got a price on my head

That I put there myself

A total disregard

For my wellness or health

I look at every new day

As a means to an end

And every time I awake

I hope I do not again

I’m not holding out hope

For anyone to come help

Cause it’s been years now

That I have been all by myself

I’m so sick of people telling me

What I can be

Cause they are not satisfied

With the one that they see

And every time I take advice

And try to be someone else

I just end up losing another part of

Myself

Where is my savior

Where is my helping hand

Where is my loving home

I guess I’m alone again