Where Is My Light? - Yowler

I wanted to be sure

Of horizons in my window, big and clear

And the sun still making singing in my ear

But I forgot the wall is always there

And now I sit in idle blankness

And a stillness I can’t take

So I begin to think in figures instead of beauty that we’ve made

And beauty’s gone

A liar spit in my ear

And it turned me into nothing, just worms and fear

The lie became my body, every pore

As puddles form beneath me, acid sore

And where is joy among these pieces

That we scream into the space?

Where is my gentle reason

And the light within my cave?

Where have you been?

I want to know the quiet

Of its voice before the screams

Just sitting in the silence

And waiting, waiting

Where is my light?

Not blue, but green and quiet, in my mind?