Immortal - Joe Budden

What if the hunger was missin'?

What if the passion was gone?

If we’re truthfully speakin', never saw it lastin' this long

If the words didn’t rhyme, what would I do for a livin'?

But I’ve been dead for so long, I figure I’m due for some livin'

They only see the effects, never pay no mind to the cause

My thinking is so complex, simplicity can get lost

What if everybody was real and I wasn’t surrounded by frauds?

The moral in that is so priceless just cause I know what it costs

Lookin' back, damn near every problem, I had it

Never got 'em retracted

I combat it, problematic, every problem of an addict

But that’s just the way the cards fell

Heartfelt but can you be cheated if God dealt?

Fuck this shit, only regret that I have is ever bein' regretful

I mean they all tried to kill me, none of them were successful

A few I knew for some years, some never met me and tried

But you can’t kill nothin' that’s ready to die

They say I live my own way, own way, and that’s fine

I’m just livin' my own way, own way, like I can’t die

They can’t remove my heart, my soul might take it’s toll

The air I breathe and the ground below

But no way, no way, let 'em all try

That’s how it feels to be immortal

Immortal

That’s how it feels to be immortal

Immortal

That’s how it feels to be immortal

And now I’m feelin' like Steven when he was up in that hospital

Nigga shot him nine times, they got him thinkin' illogical

Crippled, feelin' immortal, he cheated death, he unstoppable

He just want that revenge, nigga, feel like dying’s impossible

They want me to regress like I ain’t been through the worst

Instead of me bein' blessed, they want me pinned in that dirt

If you knew me in the past you would think my winning’s deserved

They never noticed my path and all the sins I did first

Both my parents did drugs, see they put them syringes to work

And I carry that same exact gene, but I never mention I’m cursed

Those prescriptions were murder, I blame it all on that nurse

She started my relapse way back, I developed a thing for them percs

Fuck this shit, only regret that I have is ever bein' regretful

Them fuckin' pills tried to kill me, none of them were successful

I close my hands on my knees, send these words to the sky

You can’t kill nothin' that’s ready to die, fuck this shit

Say I live my own way, own way, and that’s fine

I’m just livin' my own way, own way, like I can’t die

They can’t remove my heart, my soul might take it’s toll

The air I breathe and the ground below

But no way, no way, let 'em all try

That’s how it feels to be immortal

Immortal

That’s how it feels to be immortal

Immortal

That’s how it feels to be immortal

See I’m so self destructive, hurt anyone that come near

Done it my whole career, was always one of her fears

Hurt her so much in the past, I’m supposed to be healin' her

But she love me so much, she say that it’s only killin' her

Now she say she can’t watch it, pill poppin', it’s toxic

Promised her I would stop it, just go hide when I pop it

It’s a shame we can never be the same, wasn’t prideful

How can I tell you I’m nowhere near finished from bein' suicidal?

Baby that wasn’t me, just some nigga that smelled like me

Fuck like you stuck by some nigga that felt like me

You watched me lose weight, you just waited there helplessly

You just offerin' help to me, I just dissed the shit selfishly

When you left, I condemned you, really I should commend you

Not for havin' that in you, but for havin' the strength to

I make amends to you now, you shouldn’t have seen me that high

I killed you when you wasn’t ready to die

Say I live my own way, own way, and that’s fine

I’m just livin' my own way, own way, like I can’t die

They can’t remove my heart, my soul might take it’s toll

The air I breathe and the ground below

But no way, no way, let 'em all try

That’s how it feels to be immortal

Immortal

That’s how it feels to be immortal

Immortal

That’s how it feels to be immortal