Red Door - Julien Baker

Gonna break your hand

Tell me not to fight anymore

'Cause I feel yellow as a coward

Pale as a flickering bulb

Outside of a liquor store

So knock me out again

Count backwards from ten

As I relay the colors as they appear to me

From the bottom of a cement floor

And do you see

Me

'Cause oh how far do you think I can go

Beneath before you won’t follow me there

You don’t understand

I know the last time I swore

Not to make a scene and now I’m wandering into traffic screaming

To set me on fire in the middle of the street

Bend my knees and paint the concrete

The color of my bloody knuckles

Pulling splinters from the chapel door

And do you see

Me

Anymore

Oh how far do you think I can go

Beneath before you won’t follow

Down to the center of a black hole

A ruined sinner and a wasted soul

And I want you

I wanna let you break my heart

I wanna let you break my heart

I wanna let you break my heart

And I wanna let you break me