Carnival - Livingston

I wish I was a couple years older

Couple years wiser

Just so I could know your heart

But I know that it would still confuse me anyway

I felt just a few degrees colder

Ever since the day you left

Spare my soul

Now I can still feel the pieces of my youth just stripped away

What is life but a merry go round

Just circling doubts living up in my head

I know that they want me dead

Keep me up when I try to stay down

I try to forget all the things that they said

But they won’t let me go

I try to fall asleep

But they won’t let me dream

I just hope some day we’ll come to terms

I’m falling underneath

And I try so hard to breathe

As this rollercoaster kills me

So this goes out to the mind games in my head

You raise hell every night inside of my bed

I don’t know where you came from

But I won’t play your carnival no more

I wish I was just a little stronger

So they wouldn’t beat me up

But they did

I can still feel the mulch that they kicked at me pierce my hope

So I dusted off my shoulders and then

Told myself that I could prove it to them

Just trying to justify the first taste of feeling low

I try to fall asleep

But they won’t let me dream

I just hope some day we’ll come to terms

I’m falling underneath

And I try so hard to breathe

As this rollercoaster kills me

So this goes out to the mind games in my head

You raise hell every night inside of my bed

I don’t know where you came from

But I won’t play your carnival no more