Burgundy - Mac Lethal

I’m just tryna vent a little bit of hope, it’s in jest

That every single second gets me closer to death

I’m trying to relax, I’m tryna focus my breath

I hope the doc doesn’t up my dosage

Today I got so fucking angry at this stupid life

My 3 year old son asked me what school was like

At first I didn’t think much of it

Till' I started to explain it, conversation turned so rugged

I was like «it's lots of fun

Lots of teachers, lots of books, lots of playgrounds

You can run, you can paint, color, read, learn, recess in the sun

And by the way, one day

One of your classmates might stroll in with a gun

Shoot at you, shoot at your friends, and kill himself»

I’m not tryna be a nihilist, just being real

How are parents in America supposed to really feel

When tryna get your kid an education just might get 'em killed

Frightened by the doom

So we fly 'em to the moon

Never let 'em play outside, we just hide 'em in their rooms

Like «sorry son, daddy’s just fallen for the scare tactics

Here’s an iPad, stare at it

Forever»

It’s saturday, and there’s no chance I’m going out tonight

What are you crazy?

I’m sittin' on the couch tonight

There’s no way I’m gonna get in the car

And go and hang around a bunch of drunk kids at a bar

The last time I went, I just wasn’t prepared

The vibe in the air had me genuinely scared

I mean, dudes are buff, dudes are mean, dudes are angry

I held the door open for one, he didn’t thank me

He was showin' off his biceps

He could prolly bench two eighty five for 8 or nine reps

He had me feelin' kinda bitch made

When 50 Cent first came out, he was prolly in the fifth grade

When he was playin' truth or dare

I was buyin' product so I wouldn’t lose my hair

But I did, I sure the fuck did

And now I feel inadequate around a punk kid

Damn!

So that’s all life is huh?

Every six months go see a new supehero movie

Work a fuckin' horrible job that you hate

Get married to someone you’re sexually attracted to

Only to never have sex with them again once the kids are born

Really?

I’m tryna find what my purpose is for

But I spent the last hour at the furniture store

Tryin' to locate a god damn burgundy floor mat

That we can put where the bathroom floor’s at

For the last six months I’ve had a sore back

I used to feel, but inside I felt a cord snap

I used to have a big red heart

But now I got a big brown pile where a horse shat

I used to have a nice young face

But now I got a mask that always changes like I’m Rorschach

I used to want a Porsche

Instead I had a family

So now I’m tryin' to locate where my Ford’s at

Sittin' in the home depot parkin' lot

Humid outside, august night, dark and hot

The moon is beautiful this evening it’s rare

But honestly, I don’t even think that I care

Fuck the moon