Baseball Gloves - Mac Lethal, William Beckett

When I was five years old, I saw my dad on the driveway

And yelled out: «Hey dad, you wanna play some catch?»

I grab my glove and his glove and a baseball

Then went and laid up in the front yard, so I could stretch

He turned around and he walked to me

Kneeled down to my ear and then he talked to me

He said «Mac there’s something I should get clear, might make you sad,

but I no longer live here»

I’m sorry for the hardship, I’m moving down the street, son I got my own

apartment

And you can come and visit, I’m your parent still of course

But you mom and I aren’t married anymore, we were buried by divorce

The love we had has been thrown away

Turned cold, went stale, we have grown astray

I just didn’t know what I was supposed to say

So I stood there silent, and he drove away

My mom and dad were barely speak again for twenty years

There was so much anger, they would keep within

Until the funeral my dad was sitting in the front row, quivering so humble

'Cause really just a month ago we found out she was sick

A month later she went and died

I swear to God the hardest that I’ve ever cried was at the funeral

Face dripping many tears, dad kneel to mom’s casket and whispered in her ear

This

I’m always pushing people away

And I can’t take back my mistakes

Or all of the penances I didn’t pay

There’s not a single day that I would exchange love of mine

The time of our lives for a lifetime of asking why

My son is eight years old, he’s on the driveway now

My wife’s inside the house relaxing as I’m smiling proud

So I’ma write this down, then I’ma grab my glove

Then I’ma go outside and play some catching, show some love

I’m proud of us, we made it through the storm

I think it’s safe to say we’ve been reborn

I thought that I was losing you, I thought that it was over

But somehow tearing us apart just made us closer

I love my parents, but I’ve learned from their mistakes

And all the turns that you can take in life, they permanently break the bond

you have

You go from being happy mom and dad

To you don’t wanna see their face again until you call the cab

And pack up your suitcase, searching for that new face

And that new person seems perfect for a few days

Then you get a true taste, and realize that you stumble through an open door

And that new someone that you’re hoping for is never gonna come

You fall in love with so many people, but get the same results from every

single one

You committed to forever, but forever isn’t done

You can’t grow old with someone when forever acting young

Your children are for so perfect, then the feeling is so worth it

If we open up your heart, you’d be revealing at its circuits

That unless you change, you’re gonna struggle for life

Fuck the selfishness, find the love of your life

And tell them this

I’m always pushing people away (Aww)

And I can’t take back my mistakes (I missed)

Or all of the penances I didn’t pay

There’s not a single day that I would exchange love of mine

The time of our lives for a lifetime of asking why