Torn - Mayfield

I was caught up in the same routine of grinding out the day

Tearing my flesh apart

Trying to fight the urge to self-destruct

Where did the light go?

A daily sacrifice of my body and my mind

To get where I want to be

We’re all in this together to make something of this life

I won’t shed another drop of blood for you

And I won’t justify my reasons I’m not like you

Coerced into patterns of slavery

Conceded by meaningless gain

I can’t remember what its like to love

I’m not as patient as I used to be

As I once was

Don’t feel connected to anyone anymore

And I won’t fake this anymore

Is there still something good in me?

I feel demonic on the best of days

We shy away from our deepest desire

When there’s no spark of resolution in sight

So I’ll medicate myself until I fall asleep

Tell me you don’t do the same

Waking up to every sunrise and living on repeat

Is a deathly reaction to fear

So while you waste away your life

I’m after mine

This is not the life that I set up to live

And I can’t even escape myself

I’m holding on but still I’m losing my grip on this

There’s nothing left in me that you would want a fragment of

I’ll stay the clenching hands that tighten around your throat

I’ve sunken low, but I‘m ascending back to the surface